scotland

every day for the past two weeks, i've woken up with a word in my head. one single word.

scotland.

i don't know why. it's odd. is it supposed to mean something? have i been dreaming about scotland? if i have, i can't remember. i know i've dreamt of paris once recently, where i was sent a child's drawing of god from the heavens. it was scary.

so, aside from the glory that was water for elephants: the movie adaptation, life as been as normal--or however normal it gets for me, anyway--as ever. i also saw insidious this weekend, which was TERRIFYING (says someone who rarely gets scared of scary films. that and dead silence, i think, are the scariest scary movies i've seen). today i went to church and then, since we had nothing better to do, went to gamestop and petco with my neighbors/sisters gina and alaina, and had a great time talkin' it up with someone named judah who had dreads over xbox live.

i have also finished a book since i talked about wanting to read more and am almost done with a second one! i'll finish it tonight or tomorrow at the latest, for sure. i also have to read 1984 for sociology, which is a book that i've been meaning to read since maybe last summer, so i'm glad i finally had an excuse to buy it and add to the mounds of unread books lying all over my room!

i've also been listening to a TON of beirut lately, because, although i have a HARDCORE case of wanderlust, i haven't been anywhere and am much too broke to even plan on going anywhere. and his music takes me to a different place, a different time period, even. i dedicated one of my 30/30 poems to him. i'm still working on that last line of it, though. meh. 30/30 was killing me a couple days back but i'm doing better now. i also have a short story idea i want to work on once i get my laptop back to functioning normally (it kind of killed itself last week before the copa del ray final, OY VEY! i have to reinstall windows and i might lost all my files. and it will be a BITCH to gather all those pictues and mp3s all over again. THAT WAS MONTHS OF HARD WORK!! MONTHS!!)

also, i've been looking at cheap universities in the city recently because i am still uneasy about the idea of spending another year or two here in the 'burbs for community college. I JUST WANT TO GO SOMEWHERE, EVEN IF THAT SOMEWHERE IS A HALF-HOUR TRAIN RIDE FROM HERE!

oh, and may i post the start of a summer to-do list? well, i'm going to.

SUMMER TO-DO LIST 2K11
- write as much as i possibly can
- go somewhere new and hopefully far away, or better yet a different country, or better still, europe
- read at least a book a week
- write/shoot/direct a short film
- visit natalie in georgia?
- hang out with my high school friends as much as possible before we part ways
- constantly go to the city and discover a new place each time
- take a summer class and make new friends
- get a (summer) job and make new friends
- write letters to the teachers who have actually taught me something
- clean/redecorate my room, finally
- become nocturnal and soak up the summer nights while they last
- do a hell of a lot of swimming since i didn't get to this last summer (i didn't have a swimsuit, but now i do!)

OKAY, THAT IS ENOUGH FOR TODAY. this is getting out-of-handly long. so have a good week, faithful and few readers (mine is two and a half days long! ha! hooray for ACTs and senior ditch day!), i'll catch up with you later :) AND HAPPY EASTER!!!! HE IS RISEN INDEED!!

(my favorite beirut song for you to enjoy)