i wish it was the weekend

just one more day to go. then i have spring break!

today felt like a friday. so many awesome things happened. talked a ton to michelle in the darkroom today and managed to crank out 3 perfect prints, and we're critiquing tomorrow. I LOVE CRITIQUES. working on revamping existing company logos in commercial design, and gym was so much fun today. we got to bring in guests so katrina and i called up bo, who had an off period (she's a freshman in college and is my friend from gym last year) and she did the entire high ropes course even though she was terrified and i felt like a proud mother when she finally came back to the ground. :') and then she came to lunch with my group of friends, and cute kid K saw me as i was leaving gym and called out to me and yeah oljsdjfs he's such a cutie.

then in study hall the greatest thing of all great things happened, this kid who i kind of am in love with even though we've never formally met and he's one of my good friends' brother and stuff sat next to me at the computer bank in study hall. my friend is a sophomore but he's my age although we've never had a class together, and he's seen me roaming about in his house with her and we see each other in the hallway almost 7 times a day, so he has to have at least a foggy idea of who i am. do you ever get that feeling that someone who you always see around is supposed to be a part of your life someday? and that they'll be a big part? well, that's what struck me when i saw him for the first time. i don't know, i have this weird feeling about him. and whenever i see him in the halls i always start to work up the nerve to say something like, "hey, i'm friends with your sister!" then as soon as i gather enough courage to actually open my mouth it all vanishes. one of my lunch group friends has a thing for him too, but she has a boyfriend, so. anyhow, he sat next to me, and my heart was pounding and it was really embarassing even though i know no one could hear it, and i just kept looking at him out of the corner of my eye. he's left handed and has the most beautiful profile of any person ever. and he hiccuped once and it was the cutest thing ever. i glanced at his computer once and he was playing a rocketship-outer-space-computer-game and i chortled, because his sister told me that he's always wanted to be an astronaut and i know he's going into aerospace engineering or something like that. then, he sneezed and without hesitation i just said, "bless you" and he said "thank you" and my god, his voice. there could be no better sound. i swear, i'm practically in love with this kid and i only know stuff about him because of his sister (i mean, he's also the star athlete at our school and kind of a super-genius and gorgeous, so everyone knows a little about him, but he's also completely asocial and kind of has a hatred of human beings--something i think we can bond over, haha).

i feel like he sat next to me because he wanted to be next to me, because pretty much every seat at the computer bank was open--but that could be just wishful thinking. i just feel like he's going to be a big part of my life, you know? and it's not like i'm going out of my way to know him or anything, it's all happening of its own accord. which is what i want to happen in a relationship, and i'm not even looking for one right now, i'm happy single for maybe the first time in my life; but i can't deny that i feel something for him and that it could probably go somewhere if we actually got on, oh i dunno, speaking terms. but i'll have to see how it all plays out. there's only around two months left of school anyway, and then he'll be going to college on the east coast whereas i'm most likely staying here for community college for a year or two. which kind of sucks, but. i kind of hope something happens. i always fall for strangers, but he's not too strange and i know enough about him to think he's interesting. i want to get to know him better. so, we'll see what happens. i'll keep updated.

song of the day (it was going to be jefferson aeroplane, demo version, but i couldn't find it. so curl up and die will do. god, i love relient k).